More News...

Well, I don't really know how to put all this, so I guess I'll just wing it...

Today I had a doctor's appointment to check on my progress and remove the drainage tube I had (yeah!). I was worried about finding out how well my facial nerve was healing because so far my face has stayed about the same. Little did I know that JR and I would be hit with worse news that we definitely weren't expecting. Luckily I found out that my face should return to normal, but it could take upwards of six months. I'm not looking forward to that, but at least I know it'll eventually go back to normal. The news that we weren't expecting was the results of my biopsy. From what the doctor said on the day of my surgery the initial findings from my tumor looked benign and there were no worries. I honestly wasn't worried about the results of the biopsy, so when my doctor told me today that the more in depth biopsy results showed cancer I was floored. At my appointment they didn't have the final results yet, so JR and I had to wait a few more hours for a phone call telling me what my fate would be. Finally, we got a call from the doctors telling us the good and bad news. The bad news: it was cancer. The good news: the biopsy results showed they got all of it. It was still hard to hear given that I was holding out for some miracle that it would all come back benign, but for bad news it was the best you could get. I won't go into too much detail about it all, but so far things look good. I might have some radiation treatments to make sure that it's all gone, but we'll talk to the doctor about that next week.

It's the weirdest sort of reality hearing a doctor tell you that you have cancer at 27, but I'm taking it one day at a time. JR and I are both very hopeful given the type of cancer it is and the results from the surgery that everything will be just fine and that I won't have too many more problems from it. I'm feeling really grateful right now that we caught it when we did and that the doctor handled my surgery so well. Right now, I'm just excited to see my kids! JR is on his way home from picking them up from my parents home. I haven't seen them since before my surgery on Thursday. I miss them like crazy! I'm sure Cali will wonder what's wrong with mom's face, but I don't care :-). I love my family so much and I'm so grateful to them for their love and support. Thank you so much to all of you for your love and prayers. I know it makes a difference. I'll continue to keep you posted and let you know what we decide to do from here. Thanks again for all of your support. I love you all!!!

PS- Sorry no photo. I though about putting one up of my face trying to smile, but decided against publicly humiliating myself :-).